alright....
i`ve given up on setting it to a private blog...
with that...
there is some sort of difficulty communicating and contacting wif my primary school friends.

i will say this before everything starts right over again..
i don`t care or rather give it a damn wat u ppl out there thinks about me...
it has greatly caused me to lose almost the whole of my classmates in 1 day jus because of some sort of problems plus MISUNDERSTANDING which the first person had approached me.
regardless of being a complicated or cunning person.
im straight.
i chose to spend my time alone during recess cos i dun wan sparks to start. (so don`t worry me being lonely)
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i`ve decided not to patch things up anymore.
i wont delete past posts
u wan to read, thats ur own prob...
seek urself and not turn up to me.


im a happy PERSON!!!
its resolved.
:)

got this from CME lesson
shall make it short and type it out
read hor!!!!!

super meaningful...
i think its referring to me and ppl outside.

*enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. oh never mind, you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they`ve faded. but trust me, in 20 years, you`ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can`t grasp now how much possibility you and how fabulous you really looked.
you are not as fat as you imagined.

*don`t worry about the future. the real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your mind.
do one thing everyday that scares you.

*don`t waste your time on jealousy. sometimes you`re ahead,sometimes you are behind.the race is long and , in the end, its only with yourself.remember compliments you receive.forget the insults. if you suceed in doing this, tell me how. keep your old love letters. throw away your old bank statements. stretch.

*don`t feel guilty if you don`t know what to do with your life. don`t be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. dance.

*do not read beauty magazines. they will only make you ugly.

*get to know your parents. you never know when they`ll be gone for good. be nice to your siblings. they`re your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

*understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get , the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.


Thats all ...
ya...
im long winded...
but read it...
u`ll think its true...
spread it if u think so. :)
liwen.

alrights....
pics for the day
the day when minqi stayed over....
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the day i realised i got cock eye

beautiful cake yea?!!!!??!!!
from emi cakes~!!!
its only 600g and costs $34!!!
name of cake.. `pure addiction`
its filled wif chocolate chunks and a little almond.
:)
nice description on cake too rite???!!!!
i think so tooo!!!
+
i look dead lahx...
cos i merely jus woke up and ate my dinner...
look at fat instead:)







the irritating look every year
+
her stingyness!!!!!!!!!!

i was asking myself...
我是不是看起來很令人討厭.
wat do u ppl think of me???

they dont treat me the way as before...
its been quite sometime i`ve been keeping to myself le

esp my dad....
we are talking lesser and lesser each day
it used to be a everyday thing tat he will fetch me home from sch
will always call me to ask what time will i finish sch and he will fetch me home
but everything changed
not now
not anymore
usually after 5 he will call
now...
7 still no call
its seemed a little pek chek to talk to me now as compared to OtheR ppl in this house
guma also...
eg. back from malaysia yesterday...
it used to be a saying of HI! thingy...
as if im transparent liao
instead...
she put a bag infront of lidan
telling lidan tat she bought chicken for her to eat
she is even willing to cut open the mud covered chicken for her to eat
me???
am i tat transparent?????!

+
i merely asked whether can he send me home from sch tml
in a soooo pek manner he said see first
OMG!!!!!!
regardless of wat!!
i intend to bring tat stupid clumsy big canvas of mine home myself le!!!

went home the same time as lidan
they will ask hows her day at work
tiring and watsoever
wat time she work tml..
wat time she wan to bring to work for lunch tml...
didnt even ask whether im tired
whether got anything
whether ...

when i told them about my unlucky day about forgetting this missing the bus all those stuffs..
they continued eating...
sure got bother
i talked halfway and walk away liao
behind i still will hear guma murmuring about me blablabla stuffs

wat did i do can???!!!!
i merely wanted to share wif ppl my day.my happenings
its as simple as tat.....
i mean no motives at all
none
none at all.

pictures....
the only 2 tat i`ve gotten
but tat doesn`t matter...
i`ve got them!
:)
to minqi: look !!! i`ve edited!! no more tat red dot le!!! hahas!!!!



< a pic wif minqi!! :) >
tsk.tsk...
look at the background



< wif becca!! :) >

it is a wearing of ethnic costume day today
yupx
and i changed to wear nonya babas (malay + chinese ) outfit which guma lent to me ...
instead of geeeeeeet`s sari.(which i dun even know where should i start wearing from thingy)

for the sake of today
ongliwen woke up earlier than usual
however...
by the time i was ready and reached sch, it was like 7
rushed to change in a so paiseh manner...
came out and felt something not rite
its sort of a little auntie to me....
and i changed back into uniform in the end

many asked y did i not wear??
instead..
i explained tat it looked weird on me... so i chose not to
whole class was like soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo beautifully dress can
consists mainly chinese and malays....
+
if i wear...
its gonna be something so EXTRA...

however...
change my mind again...
during recess i wore the costume...
instead, i wear top and not the bottom :)
show u the pic when i got it :)

bone talked to me several times today...
guess she couldnt tahan our not fighting style for the past 7 days...
i ignored....
i promised tat i could not give in liao
i know its kind and sort of rude not to reply...
but i did only say yes and no only......

another thing which i feel its a little upsetting la...
mind me for complaining and being oversensitive here...
it used to be a trend of taking pics together as a class ...
eg... last year...
everyone would go round asking for pics to be taken wif...
however..
this year...
none ask
except minqi and teacher
seems so uninvited...
unwanted to be in their beautiful pic..
spoils everything

took a class pic...
felt a sense of unwantedness to be in the pic...
took a snapshot of 2 and i walked away..
few other shots im not in....

#$^#%^#$%^$%&$%
u may not understand wat im trying to say...
cos i dun even know how should i express it...
nvm...
i shall bear...
3 more months it shall be!!!
and u wont see me blabbering none stop here everyday
:)

was touched by this when charles came to talk to me online....
we were having a conversation about racial harmony tml
and i said i may and may not wear....

Sunday, 20 July 2008
11:22
kool_bloody_dude@hotmail.com
11:22
why?

liwen_doggy@msn.com (。。。(,'') LiWen ('',)。。。 dun u dare hurt them !)
11:22
so.ugly...so.extra....so$%&$^&$%^&$%

kool_bloody_dude@hotmail.com
11:23
o.O look i dont know what happened and i dont care,but all i know is i got no problem with you and if you can just wear it for the sake of the day not the class

liwen_doggy@msn.com (。。。(,'') LiWen ('',)。。。 dun u dare hurt them !)
11:23
lols
23:23
really?
23:34
u.are.close.frens.wif.them

kool_bloody_dude@hotmail.com
11:24
yeah just wear.yeah i am close.with joyce she's my friend since pri school,alvin and onnisa and the group yes but that doesnt mean i have to choose my friends to whatever they're criteria is.
24:37
small shaun for example.i might bully him yes but i still like him as a friend


blablablablabla.....
yea...
he accepts...

instead ...
beca told me today...
we are not going into HK cafe for half a year k??!!!!...
hahas....
but tat plate of roasted duck was indeed marvelous!

next...
beca came over my house...
for??
trying out of ethnic costume..
god...
its gonna be another year which im gonna 遭塌 my own reputation again...
last year tat outfit...
goodness...
i dun even know how on earth did i walk out like tat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i remembered promising myself not wearing this year...
but since chairman said its the last year....
i dun really mind throwing my face once more....
since i wont see majority of them also... which i dun give it a damn
except for some precious ones la :)
i will be wearing a sari??
which so called belly will be seen!!!!
i intend not to wear tat top cloth ...and instead wearing a simple polo tee inside ...so my belly button wont be seen!! hahas!!!!
using the long long long cloth to cover...
so most of it can be covered

its been sometime since u see me laugh crazily...
i did today
during a maths extra lesson wif ms suhaila.
:)

beca told me wat ms suhaila told her tat day after our fight in class...
`rebecca, is liwen fine?? she seems quite poor thing... whole class against her.... u get close to her k! blablablabala`
hahas.... felt so warmful....

beca asked me another thing...
liwen...
could u allow me to access into ur blog??
i told her no
then she said cos i scared she will tell bone rite...
i said yea.... plus some other reasons...
so sorry beca...
i had to protect myself...
not tat i dun believe u

and and!!!
i wan complain!!!
mum and dad bought us each new matteress!!!
so irritating!!!
im fine wif my comfy bed and now changed me new one...
stupid panxiong la!!!
if u didnt jump on ur bed...
and ur spring didnt go haywire...
i wont be pulled down by u...
mine was FINE...
no springs protruding...
but since getting 1...
might as well change both of our matteress...
oh...
saddies!!!
the bed is hard plus high can!!!!
and its a waste of money !!!!
so ex can!!!!
$5~~ u know!!!!
they told us like yesterday...
and the beds are here today!!!
i didnt have the chance to even treasure it properly for 1 day!!!!

but anyway...
thanks!!!
i shouldnt complain any further...
heeees

gosh
everything turn out FINE today??
there`s not even sparks between us....
instead its filled wif laughter as before...
however..
i cant give in...
i will still get back to my cold attitude when sch starts on monday

HK cafe for dinner
im not gonna touch it for at least 3 months
its stuffing me to death..!

gosh???
she pretty??
goodness...
like tat whole world woman fairies / angels lo.......
she`s down right ragged and bones...

i dun expect things would turn out this way
i swear
i dont!

i wondered...
there are lots and countless of loopholes which u have not covered...
u said alvin / emyza blablablabla bullied u...
u pleased me to help u
u cried unexpectedly, unknowingly
i pitied u
as a fren ...
i thought i could stand up and voice out for u
u said `i say first.... if i have nothing more to say... u would follow behind...
we swopped seats....
thought i could help u...
u even said THANK U LIWEN FOR HELPING ME to solve this prob.
and now wat??
it seems tat u get along quite well wif alvin and company!
im stupid to a High Extent to fall into ur trap~~~~!
did u even like explained this to everybody?? esp sean and joyce??
i wondered.....
wat on earth did u say to them ??
i guessed u did hypnotise them??
u`ve created stories......
and now u are on par wif them??
omg!
did u ever stand in my position??
u cried...
me and beca`s heart softened
beca wont voice out as she was a soft person
u know im not
tats y u are confident enuff that i will fall into ur trap and help u instead
and it turns out to be *fake TEARS
ur acting skills are great

teach me la !
teach me...........










duhh....
i then dun wan
`wo dan dan bu qi lehx`
who wan to learn such harsh heartening acts

relieved...
after #%^&$%^$% things happened.

however...
heard wat `HE` say
whoever talks to HER will be bashed ...
no wonder ppl shunned me for the day...
so timid for wat...
i dare say he wont lei
kena bashed even better
1 word.
he`s `DEAD`

heart dropped also..
wan bash , bash me first la...
i give u bash and not hit u back...
i dunno wat is call pain.
but if i really get the chance to rebound
i will WIN.....

wan bash ...
bash me....
dun harm my frens.
they are innocent.

however...
now they dun communicate wif me proves that u are summoning them and threatening wat u`ve said to them.

im wat weiyang said...
im a complicated person
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im gonna elaborate more.
he thinks im a cunning one

i love Sebastian as a fren....
i swear im gonna shake hands and be friends wif him during sch tml...
and treat him drink.

sure sure
sure its me multiple mask freak
sure commented.....
check before u say....
change so quickly like none happened

can`t i vent out wat i wan to say??
is it a crime??
exclamation to myself cant i???
say la
`in a nicer tone then.......`
none of ur business rite...
cry wat cry....
speak up la!

it doesnt pay to be kind anyway
kind=cause urself to be in trouble
wat for rite??
KPO la

listen to her and u believe??
she wrote too rite
jus tat she is in time to do so
jeex....
cunning man.....

stand on my side a little while and listen to wat i say arent going to kill u rite....

forget it... im left wif nothing anyway
i`ve learnt my lesson

Nightime sharpens, heightens each sensation.
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination.
Silently the senses abandon their defenses.

Slowly, gently, night unfurls it's splendor.
Grasp it, sense it tremulous and tender.

Turn your face away from the garish light of day.
Turn your thoughts away from cold unfeeling light, and listen to the music of the night.

Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams, purge your thoughts of the life you knew before.

Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar.
And you'll live, as you've never lived before.

Softly, deftly, music shall caresss you.
Hear it, feel it, secretly possess you.

Open up your mind, let your fantisies unwind,


in this darkness that you know you cannot fight.
The darkness of the music of the night.

Let your mind start a journey to a strange new world, leave all thoughts of the world you knew before.

Let your soul take you where you long to be.
Only then can you belong to me.

Floating, falling, sweet intoxication.
Touch me, trust me, savor each sensation.

Let the dream begin,
let your darker side give in, to the power of the music that I write.
The power of the music of the night.

You alone can make my song take flight.
Help me make the music of the night.

to a certain assumption...
i guess i dun seemed to exist at times in this home of mine....
everyone was not talking to me , bothering about me...
they simiply entertain theeee Others.....
~wat u wan to bring for breakfast tml ??
~wat u wan for lunch tml ??
~rice for dinner??
~snacks for u??
didnt even ask me....
yaya..... and its like as though my B`day is held on Dec..... `~`
wth~~~!!!!!
and u remembered hers on july...
me??
wat about me??
my B`day was like over ages ago??????!!!!!!!!
and i`ve lived on this earth for 17 years without u knowing at all??
by right im so called ur grand daughter toooo.....

nvm.....
to a certain extent...
i felt bad talking behind ppl`s back.....
`liwen is sad here`

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alrights!!!!!!!
sunday = long day
tuition early in the morning....
sign language in the afternoon.....

guess wat????!!!!
sign language Beginner stage 3 examination results.....!!!
ONGLIWEN pass lehx!!!!
75%!!!!!!!
great yea??
passing mark 75% . and i got it right on the dot!!!
strike 4D also not so accurate....

for the past week , i was sooooo afraid tat i would receive the message saying tat i failed...
hahas....
relieved .
at long last...

proceeding to intermediate stage 1 in 2 weeks time!!!
:)

gosh
im am down right sooooooooo guilty about this...
guess a hundred of them were dead in my hands??
i promised to rear them...
but................

+

something is not right
i have not received any message from SADEAF that i have failed my exams and got to be ready for the retake tml...
dunno y...
jus tat i feel i cannot possibly have passed ma...
stupid panxiong said... : ah ya.... ur phone message thingy spoil la... u didnt manage to see the message...but u did fail...
duhh/./././././././././././././..............

jus wat the hell is everything going about la!!!!

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex!

my god!
i would drop dead and faint immediately
tat panxiong spent $600 in a day!!!
jus 2 polo raulph lauren cloth alone cost like $500??
think i can buy dozens from this.
a normal person cant even earn more than $100 a day la!!!!!
GAWD!!!!!!!!

i was told from her tat she is gonna sponsor one raulph lauren!!
so tat we can wear out together........
`~`

total absurd and craziness !!!!

hmmmm.....
i broke my promise...
i didnt go for tuition this morning...
cos i bathe OverTime........
is it an excuse??
i swear!
i didnt do it delibrately.
tuition was supposed to start at 7.45am ...
however i was out from the bath room only at 7.40am...
went back to sleep again in my outside wear...

ate vienna *wei ye na* for lunch wif parents along wif guma...
yummms.........
$40 per person lehx....
of course yummy larhx!
seafooooooooooooood.....mussels, crabs, lobsters,cakes,salmon,abalone,scallops,crayfish........
extreme sins i say!!!
theres small lobster too!!
damn cute...
and its in my belly now...
wahahaha!!!

i guess im a

person for the time being...

lots of homework are not done yet...
3 english compre, a maths , ss , art , science...
by then i doubt im a HAPPY person le....

alrights...
let me have an account for sign language exam today...
:)

all in all...
i guess its a FAIL...
gonna have a retest as usual...
for the paper,
not am i the only one who said tat...
but many others too...
as for the signing to the examiner...
its a one to one thingy...
had confidence i will pass this section ...
however...
its of no use anyway...
the paper stands 60%!!!
which i dun even think i will get a 30?!!!?!!
signing only stands 20% ....
i will still fail right!!!!
75% for a pass is required for every student.

3 days!
its 3 days before i know whether did i pass or fail....
if no message is received....
it means......
hahas..!!
i passed!!!
but..............
i
doubt
so...

as for lesson today!!!
its soooooooooooooooooooo fulfilling!!!
i`ve made sooooooooooooooooooooooo many old frens!!!
cos none of them are younger than me , except one who is of the same age...
hahas!

oh well...
long exhausting day which i`ve not predicted.
cycling in the morning towards pasir ris beach...
had our picnic there along wif lidan and bird.
signed up for 3 years nebo for myself at e hub.
home at 1pm and out again to tm and century.
shopped ...
caught the movie 10 promises made to my dog at 6.30pm

oh my god.
its damn nice !
damn amazing !
damn wonderful !
damn disheartening !
guess its a little crude of me to use the word damn
let me change...
hmmmm.........
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yes!
the show was indeed superb!
catch it if u can :)

its a 117 mins show ...
ended at 9pm
ate ding tai feng...
*xiao long bao !*
:)
:D
:p
(:

mr ng called a number of times today...
said i felt like stopping...
cos of some reasons...
he thought for some time and gave me a call jus....
persuaded me not to stop as im rather weak...
was chided ...
as wat fat pig said...
im trying to avoid tat particular sub...
but i have to face it....

then,
i decided...
i told mr ng tat im going back again
seriously,
i need help in everything.....

xueli messaged telling me lessons have to be more regular le
as not much time is left....

wat im thinking
all teachers are trying their best to help me
but...............................
am i going to get thru all of these????
i admire sponge~like brains ppl.

im breaking down soon...

sign language major exam tml....
certainly...
im in dead meat.

off i go then!

Labels: smiles aplenty :)

alright...
picture time...
only had a few with me...
upload more again next week...


open air toilet.
1 of the award winnings nicest toilet...


some pic tat is taken dunno how many ages back...